Back to square one.

You were my friend and then something more. You wanted to make it an "Us" and I was reluctant 'coz I've been heartbroken before. I had these walls I never planned to break. You were my friend I could never afford to lose you. You gradually entered my life and conquered. Broke the walls I had constructed. I loved the way you took control over everything. Yes! It was too good to be true. My wounds were healed and I couldn't thank you enough for rejuvenating my life. We loved, we laughed. And then began some fights and some more and then a lot of them. The "sorries" became "It's your fault". The "I love Yous" became "You don't understand me". "Let's discuss and sort it out" became "Please, don't start it again". Everything was changed. If we look at it as a whole, it was a normal relationship. The meetings, the late night conversations, the making out sessions. But deep inside we both knew the real side. That awkward silence we tried hard to cover by talking about random stuff. That missing piece in heart we tried to find by saying "I miss you" That lost warmth we tried to regain by saying "I love you". But we both knew these were the mere words now and deep inside everything was still missing. It became an empty relation with a fancy packaging. It was meant to be perfect and we screwed it.
Now, No matter how hard I try, I am just unable to figure out the dent. May be it's just me. But still, there is something which needs to be taken care of. I wish I could just erase the bad memories and bring everything back to life. Wish I could figure out all the missing pieces.. Even though we don't accept the fact but things are changed and so damn changed that I can't talk about this sinking feeling to the only person I want to talk to and its you. Everything is left unsaid and undone. And now is the phase when you ask me "what happened?" all I can say is "nothing" when deep inside its a huge turmoil. I am back to the place where I started from, the lost, broken and the one with walls around.